North And South


40 - OUT OF TUNE

I have no wrong, where I can claim no right, Naught taen me fro, where I have nothing had, Yet of my woe I cannot so be quite; Namely, since that another may be glad With that, that thus in sorrow makes me sad.” Wyatt. Margaret had not expected much pleasure to herself from Mr. Bells visitshe had only looked forward to it on her fathers account, but when her godfather came, she at once fell into the most natural position of friendship in the world. He said she had no merit in being what she was, a girl so entirely after his own heart: it was an hereditary power which she had, to walk in and take possession of his regard; while she, in reply, gave him much credit for being so fresh and young under his Fellows cap and gown.

Fresh and young in warmth and kindness, I mean. Im afraid I must own, that I think your opinions are the oldest and mustiest I have met with this long time.”

Hear this daughter of yours, Hale! Her residence in Milton has quite corrupted her. Shes a democrat, a red republican, a member of the Peace Society, a socialist—”

Papa, its all because Im standing up for the progress of commerce. Mr. Bell would have had it keep still at exchanging wild-beast skins for acorns.”

No, no. Id dig the ground and grow potatoes. And Id shave the wild-beast skin and make the wool into broadcloth. Dont exaggerate, missy. But Im tired of this bustle. Everybody rushing over everybody, in their hurry to get rich.”

It is not everyone who can sit comfortably in a set of college rooms and let his riches grow without any exertion of his own. No doubt there is many a man here who would be thankful if his property would increase as yours has done, without his taking any trouble about it,” said Mr. Hale.

I dont believe they would. Its the bustle and the struggle they like. As for sitting still, and learning from the past, or shaping out the future by faithful work done in a prophetic spiritWhy! Pooh! I dont believe theres a man in Milton who knows how to sit still; and it is a great art.”

Milton people, I suspect, think Oxford men dont know how to move. It would be a very good thing if they mixed a little more.”

It might be good for the Miltoners. Many things might be good for them which would be very disagreeable for other people.”

Are you not a Milton man yourself?” asked Margaret. “I should have thought you would have been proud of your town.”

I confess, I dont see what there is to be proud of. If youll only come to Oxford, Margaret, I will show you a place to glory in.”

Well!” said Mr. Hale, “Mr. Thornton is coming to drink tea with us to-night, and he is as proud of Milton as you of Oxford. You two must try and make each other a little more liberal-minded.”

I dont want to be more liberal-minded, thank you,” said Mr. Bell.

Is Mr. Thornton coming to tea, papa!” asked Margaret in a low voice.

Either to tea or soon after. He could not tell. He told us not to wait.”

Mr. Thornton had determined that he would make no inquiry of his mother as to how far she had put her project into execution of speaking to Margaret about the impropriety of her conduct. He felt pretty sure that, if this interview took place, his mothers account of what passed at it would only annoy and chagrin him, though he would all the time be aware of the colouring which it received by passing through her mind. He shrank from hearing Margarets very name mentioned; he, while he blamed herwhile he was jealous of herwhile he renounced herhe loved her sorely, in spite of himself. He dreamt of her; he dreamt she came dancing towards him with outspread arms, and with a lightness and gaiety which made him loathe her, even while it allured him. But the impression of this figure of Margaretwith all Margarets character taken out of it, as completely as if some evil spirit had got possession of her formwas so deeply stamped upon his imagination, that when he wakened he felt hardly able to separate the Una from the Duessa; and the dislike he had to the latter seemed to envelop and disfigure the former. Yet he was too proud to acknowledge his weakness by avoiding the sight of her. He would neither seek an opportunity of being in her company nor avoid it. To convince himself of his power of self-control, he lingered over every piece of business this afternoon; he forced every movement into unnatural slowness and deliberation; and it was consequently past eight oclock before he reached Mr. Hales. Then there were business arrangements to be transacted in the study with Mr. Bell; and the latter kept on, sitting over the fire, and talking wearily, long after all business was transacted, and when they might just as well have gone upstairs. But Mr. Thornton would not say a word about moving their quarters; he chafed and chafed, and thought Mr. Bell a most prosy companion; while Mr. Bell returned the compliment in secret, by considering Mr. Thornton about as brusque and curt a fellow as he had ever met with, and terribly gone off both in intelligence and manner. At last some slight noise in the room above suggested the desirableness of moving there. They found Margaret with a letter open before her, eagerly discussing its contents with her father. On the entrance of the gentlemen, it was immediately put aside; but Mr. Thorntons eager senses caught some few words of Mr. Hales to Mr. Bell.

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A letter from Henry Lennox. It makes Margaret very hopeful.”

Mr. Bell nodded. Margaret was red as a rose when Mr. Thornton looked at her. He had the greatest mind in the world to get up and go out of the room that very instant, and never set foot in the house again.

We were thinking,” said Mr. Hale, “that you and Mr. Thornton had taken Margarets advice, and were each trying to convert the other, you were so long in the study.”

And you thought there would be nothing left of us but an opinion, like the Kilkenny cats tail. Pray whose opinion did you think would have the most obstinate vitality?”

Mr. Thornton had not a notion what they were talking about, and disdained to inquire. Mr. Hale politely enlightened him.

Mr. Thornton, we were accusing Mr. Bell this morning of a kind of Oxonian mediæval bigotry against his native town; and weMargaret, I believesuggested that it would do him good to associate a little with Milton manufacturers.”

I beg your pardon. Margaret thought it would do the Milton manufacturers good to associate a little more with Oxford men. Now wasnt it so, Margaret?”

I believe I thought it would do both good to see a little more of the other,—I did not know it was my idea any more than papas.”

And so you see, Mr. Thornton, we ought to have been improving each other down-stairs, instead of talking over vanished families of Smiths and Harrisons. However, I am willing to do my part now. I wonder when you Milton men intend to live. All your lives seem to be spent in gathering together the materials for life.”

By living, I suppose you mean enjoyment.”

Yes, enjoyment,—I dont specify of what, because I trust we should both consider mere pleasure as very poor enjoyment.”

I would rather have the nature of the enjoyment defined.”

Well! enjoyment or leisureenjoyment of the power and influence which money gives. You are all striving for money. What do you want it for?”

Mr. Thornton was silent. Then he said, “I really dont know. But money is not what I strive for.”

What then?”

It is a home question. I shall have to lay myself open to such a catechist, and I am not sure that I am prepared to do it.”

No!” said Mr. Hale; “dont let us be personal in our catechism. You are neither of you representative men; you are each of you too individual for that.”

I am not sure whether to consider that as a compliment or not. I should like to be the representative of Oxford, with its beauty and its learning, and its proud old history. What do you say, Margaret; ought I to be flattered?”

I dont know Oxford. But there is a difference between being the representative of a city and the representative man of its inhabitants.”

Very true, Miss Margaret. Now I remember, you were against me this morning, and were quite Miltonian and manufacturing in your preferences.”

Margaret saw the quick glance of surprise that Mr. Thornton gave her, and she was annoyed at the construction which he might put on this speech of Mr. Bells. Mr. Bell went on

Ah! I wish I could show you our High Streetour Radcliffe Square. I am leaving out our colleges, just as I give Mr. Thornton leave to omit his factories in speaking of the charms of Milton. I have a right to abuse my birth-place. Remember I am a Milton man.”

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Mr. Thornton was annoyed more than he ought to have been at all that Mr. Bell was saying. He was not in a mood for joking. At another time, he could have enjoyed Mr. Bells half testy condemnation of a town where the life was so at variance with every habit he had formed; but now, he was galled enough to attempt to defend what was never meant to be seriously attacked.

I dont set up Milton as a model of a town.”

Not in architecture?” slyly asked Mr. Bell.

No! Weve been too busy to attend to mere outward appearances.”

Dont say mere outward appearances,” said Mr. Hale, gently. “They impress us all, from childhood upwardevery day of our life.”

Wait a little while,” said Mr. Thornton. “Remember we are of a different race from the Greeks, to whom beauty was everything, and to whom Mr. Bell might speak of a life of leisure and serene enjoyment, much of which entered in through their outward senses. I dont mean to despise them, any more than I would ape them. But I belong to Teutonic blood; it is little mingled in this part of England to what it is in others; we retain much of their language; we retain more of their spirit; we do not look upon life as a time for enjoyment, but as a time for action and exertion. Our glory and our beauty arise out of our outward strength, which makes us victorious over material resistance, and over greater difficulties still. We are Teutonic up here in Darkshire in another way. We hate to have laws made for us at a distance. We wish people would allow us to right ourselves, instead of continually meddling, with their imperfect legislation. We stand up for self-government, and oppose centralisation.”

In short, you would like the Heptarchy back again. Well, at any rate, I revoke what I said this morningthat you Milton people did not reverence the past. You are regular worshippers of Thor.”

If we do not reverence the past as you do in Oxford, it is because we want something which can apply to the present more directly. It is fine when the study of the past leads to a prophecy of the future. But to men groping in new circumstances, it would be finer if the words of experience could direct us how to act in what concerns us most intimately and immediately; which is full of difficulties to be encountered; and upon the mode in which they are met and conquerednot merely pushed aside for the timedepends our future. But no! People can speak of Utopia much more easily than of the next days duty; and yet when that duty is all done by others, who so ready to cry, ‘Fie, for shame!’”

And all this time I dont see what you are talking about. Would you Milton men condescend to send up your to-days difficulty to Oxford? You have not tried us yet.”

Mr. Thornton laughed outright at this. “I believe I was talking with reference to a good deal that has been troubling us of late; I was thinking of the strikes we have gone through, which are troublesome and injurious things enough, as I am finding to my cost. And yet this last strike, under which I am smarting, has been respectable.”

A respectable strike!” said Mr. Bell. “That sounds as if you were far gone in the worship of Thor.”

Margaret felt, rather than saw, that Mr. Thornton was chagrined by the repeated turning into jest of what he was feeling as very serious. She tried to change the conversation from a subject about which one party cared little, while, to the other, it was deeply, because personally, interesting. She forced herself to say something.

Edith says she finds the printed calicoes in Corfu better and cheaper than in London.”

Does she?” said her father, “I think that must be one of Ediths exaggerations. Are you sure of it, Margaret?”

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